If people could become buff in a mere 4 weeks

HAHAs . Band is pure awesomeness  torture moment. No its not like it was worth the torture, ... well yeah it wasn't worth it.
This is NOT really how I INTENDED my senior year to be like. I like band moments when we all get dark and get march and flop dead together, but at least the pain was worth it. Now, I really don't see the point anymore.
It feels as if my band spirit had burnt out, and for a senior to be saying that, the situation is pretty bad.
I know.
I shouldn't be saying or more like typing all this.

I love band, cause once your a band member, you'll forever be one.
I stuck to that till form four, now I aint so sure. ..
And if any form fours are reading this, which I doubt you people would ever find me.
Band builds extremely good character, so I'll put up a fight for you people for the upcoming prefect interviews.

I talked to someone yesterday, and when I asked " How are you?" , the answer was " Lonely"
I felt so bad, because that person was the closest I ever got to another human. And I couldn't be there for that person. If I had the guts, I would apologize. But no, I am a selfish coward.

Extremely pure pain

HAHA , recently found out that most of my friends think I am unable to be sad/angry.

And when I think of it again, its most probably because of Her, and things that had happened to me for the past few months.
Seems that I just can't cry any longer, I can barely force tears out of me, I even looked at the positive angle when people were B-talking me . Yep, I am that  pathetic.
You think you can talk about me that way about my flaws, in that way? Well think again, I don't give people like you the satisfaction of seeing me hurt and affected by your stupid attempts.
I am human after all, don't say you aren't . So please STOP being such a bum and look at your sad life and weep, cause mine is tons better, better cause you aren't there ruining every bit of it.

Well

The last time I remember sobbing my eyes out was when I realised I was stupid.....
stupid enough to even have hopes and dreams about being together forever.
stupid enough to miss you.
stupid enough to even fall for you.

So very stupid, but why I sobbed was not because of all that, it was because I felt guilty, I felt so guilty that I had made someone cry over me, miss me, and get hurt along the way. It was also because I figured not all guys are as sensitive as you are, or would have cared about anyone else more than me at that moment.

How many guys do you know would stand in the rain for you, calling your name
If the certain someone I mentioned is reading this, I want to say I am truly sorry 

HAPPYNEWYEAR TO YOU =D

Being in Kuala Lumpur, means spending new year as any other normal day.

HAHA

who am I kidding, you expect a Chinese family to just sit there? 

No, we Chinese will celebrate just about everything just to get an excuse to eat out. And for my family, eating out has to be worth it, so we drove all the way to Teluk Gong to have seafood.

Yep

An hour drive, just for lunch.

Lets just live with what my mom always says :

"Always eat food that is worth getting fat for "

We really enjoy food, obvious enough.

=)

Anyway, I feel so bad for not continuously posting, feels like some guilt thing that clings 

 

Like every year, 2010 has been bittersweet

Let me make a list  (you see I LIKE LISTS ) 

1.     I have learnt and fully understood that not all things ONLY exist it TV shows and movies. For example, I finally, realize that love actually exists, the unconditional, selfless one , the one that makes you cry, and you hate it as much as you love it. Oh yeah, love.
2. I learnt that expired butter can still be used, so basically there ISN'T AN EXPIRY FOR BUTTER.=O
3. Impossible things happen when you really believe'
4. Don't look to hard , or you won't find it.
5. Responsibility is just another word to blame you for just about everything.
6. Sarcasm is awesome when they get what it means.
7. You need to surround yourself with the things and people you love, it'll be too late when you realize 

And therefore I shall stop, ;) BYE